behind the scenes.

this is a little refreshing post of realness. I think it's necessary sometimes to do a post where I tell you some things about me and my life that are just...real things. not dreamy or beautiful or delightful or amazing, just normal. I know that when I read other blogs, I can sometimes think, "wow. she's pretty much...perfect." but I know that's not all that there is. but I also know that I really really really appreciate a post where a blogger will open herself up or just talk about life how is. just like movies and tv shows, we all have behind the scenes and so today, I want to share some of mine.

sometimes I have days where I'm grumpy. when I didn't get much sleep that night, where my skin has broken out, when it's grey and muddy and yucky outside. I don't particularly feel like being chatty on those days and sometimes I'll be too sarcastic and it ends up just being snappy. 

I do the dishes. I hang out the washing. I clean my bedroom. I clean the bathroom. yes, I even clean the toilet. I weed the garden (though, truth be known, I try and get out of this as much as I can). I paint walls. I put away tools. I clean out the fire. all of these things. they're ordinary, daily things. but they are a part of my everyday life and we all have to do 'em or something like them. yes, they're boring. but they're life and I do them too.

sometimes I have days when that lovely time of the month comes (yup, getting real here) and I just wanna go to bed and sleep it off for an hour or two. when I have to take painkillers but I really don't want to. when laughing at puns is just not gonna happen. when I'd rather just watch movies all day with a hot water bottle and a cup of tea. but, I can't. coz I have to get on with life.

I make messes. I procrastinate. I worry about my looks. I wear sweaters and pj bottoms all day sometimes. I get annoyed at people. I'm not very compassionate. I don't like washing knives and forks. I often wish I was skinner, prettier, or wish that I would just put more thought into wearing something cute. all these things are pretty much natural. it doesn't mean they're right or ok, but they do happen and I want to share with you guys that I do these.

sometimes I have days when I miss people and places and it makes me sad or lonely or whatever. on days when things aren't going right and I'm grumpy and I have boring chores to do, I will try and make the day better. I'll have a coffee or put music on or read my Bible and pray (this is the best) or have a bath or just try and do something to keep myself busy. truthfully, I don't often have full days where I'm really grumpy, coz most times I'll make myself snap out of it, but I do have days where I throw a pity party, which no one wants to join in with (what? why on earth not?). 

so. of course I don't want this is be a big sob story. I'm very content in my life, I'm truly truly grateful for it, and the Lord is my strength in hard times, but what I want this post to be is, an encouragement to all of you bloggers. to just...get real. to just tell people about your life other than the pretty side. if we knew each other in person, then I'm sure you would know these things about me. whenever I feel as though things here on the blog might be getting a little too...sickly sweet, I'm going to post a behind the scenes post to give us all a reminder about real life! phew. that post felt incredibly serious. I'm gonna die now.

love you all.
be good, tell me bout some things that are normal in yo life, and always be awesome.

<3 jess
p.s. realizing that a "being real" post is kinda cliche, my other behind the scenes posts will perhaps be a lil more...light-hearted and ridiculous: like me.